I've wanted to be a photographer as long as I can remember. I've shot everything from landscapes to bugs and enjoyed almost every different genre, especially fine art.
But recently I've been second-guessing myself and questioning if its something I want to pursue as a career like I'd always planned or if it better suits me as just a hobby. (Does anyone ever REALLY know what they want to do with the rest of their life??) In the past I have put a lot of pressure on myself to make the "right" choices and work towards a set of goals that seem to be ever changing. For some reason I expected to have my life so much more figured out by this age than I actually do.
At the end of the day I enjoy creating because it fulfills some small part of me. Sometimes I love the work I create and sometimes I fail completely. I've learned that's part of being an artist, and dealing with times of self-doubt is something I need to work on.
I'm pretty unsure of myself at the moment but at the same time excited about what the future holds. I'm going to do my best to look at it as an adventure and accept the changes as they come, taking things one day at a time instead of stressing about the big picture.
I think Phillip Yancey said it best- "I have learned that faith means trusting in advance what only makes sense in reverse."