I went out to take my first self-portrait while being back at Cazenovia last week. I had full intentions to make this a composite with an awesome concept I had in mind and come out of this shoot successful. Instead, I spent two hours out in the woods by myself struggling with mastering the art of self-portraiture. I had problems getting the exact pictures I wanted because of my remote not having much of a range and the fact that I was getting easily discouraged.
Towards the end of this shoot, I decided that I would just do something simple and to relax a bit. Sometimes our plans just don't work out and I had to accept that. Instead of acting out a part I wanted to play in my images, I just posed the way I was feeing multiple times until I had to leave to get ready for class.
At this moment, I also realized that even though photography can be as frustrating as ever, it's one of the most rewarding experiences for me and so many other photographers out there. I've decided that I'm going to keep pushing myself, not put myself down as often, and keep accepting the challenges that come my way.
In the end, I ended up with this image and even though it isn't the best portrait I've ever taken, the picture isn't perfect, and it has much more meaning to me than it ever will to the viewers, I like it.